Member: jock
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Region: South East
Added: 11th Sep 09
Type: Need
For: Family
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Status: Open
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ive been with my partner 10 years exactly today, we have 3 beautiful kids and at last a decent house over our heads, which i guess is more than some people have and im grateful for that.
However all she ever wanted was for us to get married, unfortunately the house we live in was in so much of a mess that it has drained us of all resources available to us , and left us in so much debt that its really taking its toll on our love and our relationship, not to mention what it must be doing to our kids.
Although we both look at what we have and remind ourselves that there are people much worse off than we are it nevertheless doesnt make me feel any better that i cannot grant her the one thing in life she wants and most definatley deserves.. it hurts, and i cannot help but feel im letting her and my kids down by not doing the right thing.
I lost my job 7 months ago and with little of anything atm , im in no position to do anything but sit and remind myself what i should have and shouldnt have done over those 10 years that would have made a difference.
We live and learn i keep reminding myself it can only get better, but there is no light at the end of this tunnel im afraid, ive asked through prayers , ive kept beleiving that the day would come , and yet , again 10 years later to this day....nothing.. .ive let her down ,
i just wish , that i was in a position to make her dreams come true :(
thanks for hearing me out .